Missing the daddy

Since Shane left, I have to admit, I've been in pretty good spirits. Thanksgiving came and went, not a tear. Today however, I started feeling really down. As much as I have thought about how the kids and I were going to be without Shane, I didn't think that putting up Christmas decorations without him would make me so sad. The kids aren't quite old enough to help put up the ornaments on the tree, so doing everything myself really hit me hard.

I'm sure that even if Shane were here and sat on the couch the whole time while I put up the decorations, I wouldn't be sad, but I am. I just keep thinking how our son is going to turn 4, our daughter 2, and our 5 year wedding anniversary are all going to come and go without him. I know this is what happens when you marry someone in the military, but it doesn't make it any easier to handle. I'm just going to take things one day at a time and rely on my friends here to support me on my down days and giggle with me on my happy ones.

The next 6 1/2 months will go by sooner than I know it and I will be that much stronger. Bring it on!!! :) I miss you honey!


I miss seeing this!